Hey! I work in a place that provides a place for people with handicaps. There are many people there that society considers repulsive and freaks, but I see them on a daily basis smiling and enjoying their lives. I am not saying that such a place is for you, I just wanted to say that even if mainstream society rejects you, there will be places that will accept you. I can only encourage you to seek professionals that can help you overcome your hurdle and find a place to strive. Best of luck!
Hey, skinny girl looking for clarification: Do you need body fat for the breast tissue to grow or is it completely orthogonal?