I’ve been so close to sharing nudes with male friends recently, because sometimes I’m just feeling myself and I want some validation, and there’s something deeply gender affirming about a cis lesbian or straight man thinking you’re hot. I get why you had the urge, but I agree it’s probably not great idea to actually do.

It is pretty hot thinking about my guy friends getting all flustered by me, ngl. But bad, bad Domi, no!

Congrats!!! Glad to hear you’re recovering and you’re on the right dose. My boobs have become undeniable now and I love it.

I love Suzy Izzard and think she looks great, but it’s fucking insane to say that you look like her. She’s like 64 and she has a completely different face and body and style and presentation to you. The commenter above is a complete idiot.

You’re so beautiful. Don’t let that shit get in your head.

Amazing transformation, congratulations

Aw so happy you shared this

Sorry for your loss Nikki. It’s so cruel.

Hey Penny. That’s a really cute dress!

Sometimes a night out is just a little bit cursed all the way through. Keep trying!

Hey Nissa, sorry to hear you’re in a slump sweetie. I know you’re in a place where it’s tough to truly be yourself. Sending all my love. Do feel free to yap about it if you wanna.

OK I’m really glad you’re on top of your blood testing and I’m glad you know the deal with cypro. Sorry if my comment was condescending, i just found the 50mg daily so alarming.

I also feel the same way about T. I’m not minimising that in any way. I just wouldn’t actually survive if it came back, i think i’d be dead within days. I have exactly the same hesitation about stopping cypro, but just get your ass on the lowest effective dose asap. There’s just no need to risk anything more than that.

Sorry sweetie, i don’t mean to imply you don’t know what you’re doing, this is just a trans girl feeling quite intense sisterly concern from afar. Lots of love.

Today sucked. A lot. Things that I shrugged off pre-HRT can really upset me know. But even so…I wouldn’t change a thing. I’d never stop taking E. Because I like having emotions, the good, bad and ugly. I don’t enjoy being an emotionless zombie, like I was pre-HRT.

I can cry. I can let it out. HRT is the greatest gift life has bestowed upon me and I am forever grateful.

This is so extremely relatable and nice to read. It’s exactly the way I feel too. I do get way more upset with things sometimes, but i actually feel them emotions and i feel like they’ve been processed when they’re done. I cried for 90 straight minutes the other day because I tried to go out to a trans meetup and I got incredibly socially anxious and had a panic attack and I had to leave. It’s because I cared more, and it’s because i’m actually capable of feeling emotions now. It’s so much better than it was before, even in its saddest and most painful moments.

It was really nice to read you put it into words from your perspective. Sorry you had that dogshit day. Better days will come.

50mg daily is dangerous. CPA is powerful, you do not need a lot of it. I started on 12.5mg every 48 hours, in 6 weeks my T was <1nmol/l. After 6 weeks i went down to 12.5mg every 72 hours.

The reason 50mg daily is dangerous is that your liver hasn’t had time to clear all of it from your system before you take the next dose, and so it builds and builds and builds. Apart from your liver being stressed by all this work, CPA can cause prolactinomas and meningiomas (benign brain tumours) if it is allowed to build up like that for too long.

You will still get great T suppression from a quarter pill (12.5mg) every 2 or 3 days. The risk of prolactinoma and meningioma is negligible at that dose.

There’s no reason to be taking cypro daily now your T levels have flatlined and your E levels are good. You really could probably just stop altogether now because your e-levels are so high it will suppress T all on its own.

Get your liver function and prolactin levels checked.

It’s almost embarrassing how much I love my smell now. Like my clothes before I wash them smell amazing. But you can’t be huffing your own dirty clothes smell in front of someone without getting some weird looks lol.

Also you might like this post https://stainedglasswoman.substack.com/p/how-to-come-out-anywhere

I’m happy to talk about it but I suppose it all depends on your specific relationships and what your famy members are like. I had some specific worries about my mum but I wasn’t worried she’d be mad or disown me so I started from a place of relative safety.

I agonised about sending the news via text before we met up, with all the happy pictures of me etc, so it would be less of a shock. But I decided that I didn’t want her to have all that in her head without me properly talking to her for a while, in case she span out about it.

So I decided to just show up dressed like I usually dress now, and just hit her with it in person. I tried to be kindof funny in the opening line, but she was just kindof stunlocked and being really weird. So I just said “you realise what’s happening here right? This is me coming out to you as trans”.

I knew she’d be worried about the medical side so I talked her through how I was being safe with my medication, getting blood tests regularly etc. I talked about how I need her to allow me to come out in my own time to the rest of the family and not to out me to anyone and she agreed to that. I told her about how transition has cured a lifelong depression, how it saved my life and how I actually want to live to old age for the first time in my life now.

I made it clear that this is what I need and that I will never stop or go back and she just took that on board. I also told her how I’ve been the target of near constant street harassment, sexual harassment, violent threats, slurs and abuse every time that I leave the house. Because I wasn’t her to know how bad things are for us in this country and actually feel angry about it. I told her that despite all this I’m the happiest I’ve ever been in my life. She was very worried for me but also understood that the alternative (living in the closet) was not an option.

On the way home I noticed she’d changed the name of our group chat with my girlfriend and her, and changed the picture to one of the new ones I sent her. She did that without me asking. I’m very proud of her for that.

Thank you sweetie

You’re about to become unstoppable 🔥 have fun bb

Amazing! Get absolutely clowned on bro.

Good luck Cily!

You’re going to have days where you feel like shit and days where you feel great. Glad you’re here! Here’s to more great days.

Girl I was so worried about you when you made your first post when you seemed so dysphoric but I love hearing about you feeling yourself. You’re so beautiful I really hope you keep hold of that feeling. Stay winning! X