I feel like I started too late. There’s no hope for me of ever passing… I’m so freaking dysphoric

  • chloeboehnchen (she/her)@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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    1 month ago

    Thats the dysphoria talking. A) you already look pretty Passing B) in your other post you said you’ve only been HRT for 5,5 months? Give it time. I promise you it will be worth it.

    I had the same type of mid-HRT dysphoria were I thought I would never pass. And just a few months later I couldn’t boymode anymore since I was already passing too well. It will happen for your too. Im 31 btw. Dont know how old you are but you look younger than that. “Too late” is a dirty lie the dysphoria tells you. Dont believe it.

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      1 month ago

      I’m 20. Thank you for the kind words 🩷 It’s just really hard to stay positive sometimes

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        1 month ago

        Girl my egg hadn’t even cracked at 20. Give yourself some time!

        Also you look more fem than you think you do!

        The best thing I ever did for my mental health was making some irl friends. Humans are social animals, you’ll feel so much better if you have a good community around you

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    30 days ago

    Tell you truth, I read the title of this post, clicked the image, thought “huh, why is she screwed?” and tried to find the problem in the image. Then I read the community name and the rest of your post.

    You’re passing just fine.

  • chattre@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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    1 month ago

    holyholyfuck no no no you’re so pretty you’re so pass TwT

    the brain goblins are in your head u got this

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    1 month ago

    (Please take this kindly.)

    I’m truly, honestly not sure whether this is a troll/bait post or just someone with severe confidence issues. But I’ll assume the latter until proven otherwise. You would hardly be the first passing trans gal that’s convinced themselves they’re hopeless. Gender dysphoria is a bitch like that.

    Girl, at least from what I can tell in this photo, you already pass. If you find yourself not passing in public, there are a few possibilities. It might be something that we can’t see in a front-facing photo, but can be seen in side profile. It might be your voice. It might be mannerisms. But even if you’re getting read male in public, it’s no reason to doom. If it’s voice or mannerisms, well you can change those. If it’s side profile, that does require FFS to change, but that hardly means you’re doomed.

    But really, from the photo, I would say it’s mostly in your head. If you hadn’t told me you were trans, I wouldn’t have known.

    • McUberStein@lemmy.zipOP
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      1 month ago

      I swear this isn’t a troll. I truly do have severe confidence issues along with terrible anxiety.

      This is honestly just a good-ish photo and I’m definitely not passing. I still boymode in public for that reason.

      It’s really hard to get out of my head. My bf keeps complimenting me, so do my friends, but it’s way too easy to dismiss them. I’m sorry this post seemed like a troll.

      I will need FFS for my profile: mainly my forehead. However, reading all of these comments, I’m getting slightly more hopeful. Thank you, kind stranger 🩷

      • isleepinahammock@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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        30 days ago

        Do you actually know if you pass or not? Have you tried girl moding? It might surprise you if you haven’t.

        And sorry, I didn’t mean to accuse you of anything. I definitely get the confidence issues. I’ve dealt with them myself.

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          29 days ago

          I have tried girl moding, just in like the worst way possible. I go outside with my bf after dark in girlmode quite often, and even then, I’m really anxious about people staring.
          Even without the dysphoria, my anxiety and low self-confidence are killing me…
          I’m already taking pills for that, but they’re not really helping much. Prog kinda helps with the anxiety though. I should really force myself to get out there more…

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        30 days ago

        You look like a girl to me. My husband’s cousins both have a body profile similar to yours, so I can say with confidence you have a fem bod.

        Maybe if you’re getting tagged as a boy still, it’s your voice? Speech classes might help.

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    30 days ago

    Granted I’m cis but you pass to my eyes, you’re very pretty though your eyes are so sad. Don’t let the dysphoria demon win. Your brain is lying to you.

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      30 days ago

      Omg, thanks ❤️

      My eyes are sad? My eyes are like the only thing I’m confident about, I got my mom’s blue eyes 😭

      Thank you tho. Especially from a cis person, this makes me feel better :3

  • nikki@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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    1 month ago

    you look fine girl don’t sweat it :) 5.5 months is also barely any time in hrt standards, its a years long journey and it won’t do the heavy lifting for you! gotta work on your confidence and outward expression yourself. hrt just makes it a little easier in my experience

    pro tip: get bangs 😉

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    1 month ago

    Girly pop: chat its so joever sends most pretty girly girl photo ever

    Ok but you don’t look old? Plus you look really pretty?? Also who cares what you look like/pass or not, you’re a beautiful woman and that’s that??? Also those bottoms fucn rock where you get them???

    Transitioning isn’t an over night process it takes years not just for physically but also mentally. It takes time to allow yourself to pass your own expectations of what it means to be a woman. Overall you gotta look forward towards the expectation of being yourself, cuz there’s no other woman like ya in the world.

    Hope we worded that right lol

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    30 days ago

    Sorry if a cis male isn’t supposed to comment here, but I was genuinely curious as to what you meant by “I’m screwed,” because I didn’t think you could possibly mean you didn’t look femine (passing?) because you do.

    I think you look great and I hope you feel that about yourself soon, too!

    Again, I’m sorry if I’m not welcome here, not using the correct terminology, or have completely missed the point of this post.

  • RedSeries (she/her)@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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    29 days ago

    3 years into HRT starting at 33yo over here. No, you’re ahead of the curve girl. You look more like a woman than you give yourself credit for and time will only make that more true.

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    29 days ago
    1. There is no time too late to start.

    2. I scrolled by and wondered what this very cute girl is going through that shes “screwed” about.